First, please let me say, THANK YOU!  You gals have been so kind, loving, and gracious to me!!  I was in a dark place when I typed that last post, and although I'm still wrestling with many of those emotions, I've got them in check today.  Anyway, I just need to say thanks for all the encouraging comments left for me.

Today, my mother-in-law reminded me that I had promised to post some pics from my last ultrasound. I hadn't forgotten to do it; I've just been lazy.  The printer/scanner is downstairs.  ;-)  Anywhere, here is our bean... well, I guess lemon now. LOL.

I have a regular appointment with my doctor - I was promised I would see her this time! - on Feb. 16th, and then I have the 20 weeks to find out if it's pink or blue appointment on March 16th. 

I kinda got in the new baby mood a bit today when I pulled out a bunch of the baby boy clothes that my sister had given me.  I was showed them to my mother-in-law.  It made me happy.  I also took a look at the crib and the dresser we got when pregnant with our Angel.  It made me a bit anxious to start fixing up that room.  I think that's a good sign.  I also went out and purchased a maternity top to wear to church today.  It made me look pregnant instead of fat.  That was nice.  I'm trying harder to connect with this baby.  I think once we find out if it's a boy or girl, it'll be easier.

Michael and I watched a great movie last night called Rust. I love Christian movies.  They always leave me feeling stronger - inspired - hopeful.  I would highly suggest this one.  A man struggling with his faith because of some awful things that had happened, finds it again.  Needless to say, I needed that message...


  1. What a BEAUTIFUL ultrasound picture! Glad you are doing well hun!

  2. What a little cutie!! I am so glad that today is better for you. I have been doing better too. It is funny that you posted about getting excited for the new baby to come, I am getting that excited bug too. I think for me it is because the first trimested is drawing to a close real soon. It is a little harder to allow yourself to get excited after a loss. I think we tend to guard our heart eventhough we don't mean to. Is your sickness letting up yet? I sure hope so. Well, I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you and that your rainbow sure is a cutie! God bless you:)

  3. Jamie, I just saw your last post and this one. I wish I had seen it before. Your words describe so accurately how I felt during my pregnancy for Ruth. I could go into detail, but I won't. Just know that you are not alone in how you feel about the baby. (We didn't buy one thing until 38 weeks!) I threw everything baby in the basement and refused to look at it. It's hard because your pregnancies are overlapping. That in itself is a whole separate journey than just being pregnant with a rainbow baby. Be patient. It will get better. There is a certain level of my heart i kept from Ruth with such guilt. Even after she was born. I have been encouraged to know I am not alone in how I felt, that others feel it too. love you friend, Kristie

  4. Jamie, I am so happy you are getting the new baby feelings. I knew it shouldn't be much longer. Cannot wait for you to know pink or blue and that will really become a reality for you. Your Angel is with you every step of the way to help keep you and rainbow safe and to help you to not grieve but be happy now. Your daughter will also enjoy watching your tummy grow and feel the baby movements. I loved watching my grandchildren kiss their mom's belly and talk to their new baby brother or sister. Then after the child was born it was as if they all already knew each other. It was so sweet and amazing to watch. I pray for you and your family everyday to keep you all safe and help you to move on with God to help you.

  5. Looks like a great movie! I'm going to have to check it out...always on the lookout for uplifting, wholesome movies.

    Just came across your blog. You have a nice design. It's always so wonderful to come across a blog that is from a Christian perspective, dealing with loss...I'm so sorry you had to endure the pain of your miscarriage. :'-( I hope you've been finding support in this online community. Blessings, Hannah Rose