This Weekend and This...

Went to a speech and debate tournament this weekend:

Yes, I have a weird look on my face - can't remember why - and yes, I am wearing slippers - because after a long day of walking around a high school, my feet start to HURT ;-)

Anyway, the above picture represents why I sacrifice for speech and debate at the high school where I teach.  These kids did soooo well!!!!  And as a result, the coach - me - got a trophy!!! :-)))  I love to put new shinny things in my classroom.  They make me happy.

They make me happy... teaching makes me happy... my church family and serving there makes me happy... my husband and daughter make me sooooo happy!  So, why am I not happy at times???????

Because I choose not to be.  I love quotes, and one of my favorite ones is, "Life is 1% what happens to you and 99% how you react to it." 

So, I'm choosing to be happy from now on!  I'm choosing to focus on all the great things that make up my life - because you  never know when it will be taken from you.  A friend of mine lost her sister this past week. The sister was happily married, had a 6 year old, an adopted 1 year old, and a new 6 week old... then had a migraine, and died shortly thereafter of a stroke.  She had pre-eclampsia during her pregnancy, and it must have been a resulting complication from that... even 6 weeks after delivery. :-(

The point of sharing that is this - life is short!  It could be gone at any moment!!  So as I said to my juniors after reading the poem "Thanatopsis" by William Cullen Bryant on Thursday, to quote the poem...

So live, that when thy summons comes to join
The innumerable caravan which moves

To that mysterious realm where each shall take
His chamber in the silent halls of death,
Thou go not, like the quarry-slave at night,
Scourged by his dungeon; but, sustain'd and soothed
By an unfaltering trust, approach thy grave,
Like one who wraps the drapery of his couch
About him, and lies down to pleasant dreams.

I'm not going to obsess any longer about getting pregnant again.  Don't get me wrong... I'll continue to chart my BBT, use a few OPKs, and take my prenatal vitamins; however, if it doesn't happen, then it doesn't happen.  If the only other child I have besides Beth is my Angel Baby - then so be it!  I WILL LAY THIS AT MY SAVIOR'S FEET AND NOT PICK IT UP AGAIN! 

My life is not my own.  It was bought and paid for by my Jesus.

Dear Jesus,
As long as I'm here, thank you for the time
May everything I do bring you the glory, not mine
Thank you for my babies and my husband, so dear
Thank you for my church and my career
I just want to know you more and grow
Then to see you one day, to reap what I now sow
This I then will lay down at your feet
And worship you forever, walking down your golden street
Your adoring daughter - Jamie

I don't know where that just came from!  I'm a poet and didn't know it ;-)  LOL


  1. LOL :) Glad that your debate team did well :) Also glad that you are at peace and all... wish I was as calm as you. Much love to you <3

  2. What a wonderful place to be! I'm sure you feel so free... When we surrender our lives it's like we finally open our eyes to the reality that we were never in charge in the first place. God is so good and so trustworthy, everything works better when they're in his hands. :)